“Confessions to a Moonless Sky” is a meditation on the brand new moon and guilt. I wrote it once I was dwelling in Dallas and was driving again from a dusk prayer. The brand new moon terrified me on that drive. I used to be diseased by the information that my accomplice, on the time, had seen the worst elements of me. There’s immense disgrace on this piece–it seized my self-image. If the moon may change into model new, then I may begin over.
I typically ponder on the moon’s reflective nature and pairs of eyes. I’m hyper-fixated in how I’m seen in others. Sadly, the brilliance of seeing your reflection in one other particular person results in negativity. In spite of everything, those that are too eager of their very own reflection are the identical individuals who endure from it. It’s attainable to make use of disgrace to gas one’s retribution and private progress, with out turning into consumed by it.
We will look to Shah Rukh Khan succumbing to alcoholism in his personal sorrow after which later imbibing his unhappiness in Chandramukhi. “Confessions to a Moonless Sky” is a lesson for us: don’t be Shah Rukh Khan in Devdas, as an alternative embody pre-incarnation Shah Rukh Khan in Om Shanti Om!
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Confessions to a Moonless Sky
Typically when the moon abandons the sky, I ponder if I drove her away.
If she comes again, will she be the identical? How I want she would come again new, actually new! That approach she’d don’t have any reminiscence of the sin I’ve confessed to her. You noxious insect. Sin loving, ego imbibing pest. You’re no monster, for at the very least a monster has ideology, it sins with function. You sin simply to chase ignominy.
However the moon received’t say that, she by no means does. She’ll simply go away the sky and return days later, slowly. And I’ll surprise if she’s new, maybe she received’t keep in mind my previous confessions. What does it matter? Have been the moon changed with one from a special god, I’d drive her away, too.